RAIN.

Hi folks.

I haven't been blogging again recently since I have literally no time to do this anymore. I have been juggling two jobs at once, and it's really taking a toll on me. I really need some "me" time and I think that I also need to enjoy life a little more.

Oh well, this blog has been more of a "vent" blog than a place where you can actually discover things about me and where I live like how most blogs are. I'm really gloomy lately just like the weather, since it's been raining like every single day here in MNL. I have don a couple of mistakes at work, AGAIN, and you it's hard to make mistakes at work especially when something big is at stake. I won;t mention it here since, hmm, I don't find it proper.

I'm guessing I should change my blog name to: the whims of a 21 year old bitch. what do you think? Well, honestly I'm no bitch at all. You'd think that I'm the kindest girl on the planet, and my being kind usually pulls me down anyway.

Aside from having no lovelife and no social life, there's nothing really exciting about my job. I sometimes envy some of my friends who have other jobs with smaller salaries than mine, but are pretty much happy with what they have right now. I on the other hand, hate my job so much, but I just find it hard to resign. I don't know, I think I'm tied to a leash or something.

Last week, I literally told myself that I am going to resign from this wretched work, but just yesterday, my boss told me we were going to Singapore for 3 days in November. I haven't been to Singapore and I always wanted to go out of the country again, and to think that this is for free? Well, this is really something. so again this rattled my brains, and I really don't know if I can resign or not. I have been working so hard, with almost no sleep, that my eyes are always heavy in the morning, and I am getting fat from all this stress. Even if I don't eat at all, I just grow bigger and bigger.

I'd always tell myself that I can work on my own. literally. My freelancing job can really earn me big bucks. well aside from the fact that it is a bit boring since you are just working on your own, with no workmates or office, but the stress level is down and the pay is big.

The thing that keeps me staying is the fact that I can go to Singapore for free in November..LOL..yes it's that funny. Well in a third world country like this, going abroad for free isn't a joke.

Oh well, maybe I guess I have to rethink things again. I'm really not happy here anymore and I have dropped quite a big number of job interviews already

There is just one thing I need to do now. THINK.